Hi, I’m Beeper a 32 year old girl from Wiltshire. I am new to my diagnosis of Bipolar and to blogging, even though I have been on-line for over nine years and Bipolar for 25 years!
As part of my diagnosis process, I have had to keep regular and detailed mood charts, as for most of this process, I have been high, they’ve been very wordy and full-on. Beeper blog is to be an extension of this, probably wordy at times and quieter at others.
I don’t really have a fixed agenda for the blog, I want to use it as a place for my mind rambles, it’s the only place I feel safe in casting them out. I’ve led a very interesting and emotional life, people have told me countless times that I have enough to stuff a book! (this is where the Biography page will grow… albeit slowly). Part of my frustration I believe lies in my lack of creativity and expression, so for the first time since school, let’s see what we can cook up.
This blog is primarily for me to fire out thoughts, humour, hilarity and insight. I would like people to join in, I’m not going to be recruiting for it though! I love replying to comments, MSN’ing and Forums, so if you know me or want to get to know me, add a comment.
Hi Beeper,
I stumbled across your blogs by googling citalopram, which I have just been subscribed. You have a great way of writing and the way you describe your days, sound exactly like what happens to me. I havnt been diagnosed with anything, but have suffered from depression for years which is so random I cant tell you. I am bubbly and chatty to people that I meet and then just randomly I wake up and Im so rubbish, I just want to die, I find noone understands an even when I try to getmyself out here and put on a brave face, those strange feelings that you have just all of a sudden happen to me a lot. Im gonna keep reading, keep up the good work x
Hi Sharon,
Nice to have you here and to hear that I can provide a little understanding, stick around… it’s great to hear people’s stories.
-Beeper-
Ah I’m in the middle of the mood diary process. Doesn’t make much sense as before I was told to start it after a hypomanic episode. Since I started it, I dipped into a really awful depression, came off the escitalopram then swung into this angry agitated state which I’ve been in ever since. Next appointment should be fun.
I’ll be sticking around, consider yourself added to the “lovelies” blog roll
Take care x
Happy New Year Beeper… I hope you got Guitar Hero for Christmas.
Hey Beeper. I sent you an e-mail. I love your blogs. Nice to hear others are going through the exact same shit as I! Hope to hear from you,
Jenn
Just found this page as I am also un-diagnosed & un-medicated as I am so scared of meds. I don’t want to lose myself if that makes sense so struggle on alone. Your pages are great & I will be working my way through them all. I hope you still write on here.
Jaine