Life can be fun….
How many times have you read on a blog, “I’ve been missing in action”, or “sorry I haven’t been around” ? Especially bipolar blogs? Well I’ll try and avoid the moans…. as much as I can.
I’ve not been up to much personally, just swinging about in my mood and trying my hardest to figure out how to make this stop. Depakote is not working, my team and I have called time on it after 10 months of rapid cycling, my hair is falling out worse than ever and I’ve managed to put on 2.5 stone in the same period of time by doing nothing extra…. oh the shame (ha ha).
I am now entering a tritation period for Lithium:-
In medicine, titration is the process of gradually adjusting the dose of a medication until the desired effect is achieved.
Over 8 weeks I am coming off Depaokte and stepping up Lithium. Everyone has been cautious in using the Lithium word around me and being cautious about me starting it, meaning family and friends really.
Please don’t take me for being flippant, but things have been tough and since I last wrote, I’ve been high three times! I’ve been classically irritable, illogical and frustrated and pushed to the point I’ve wanted to peel my own eyes for a glimmer of relief. Lithium for me is an opportuity to rid me of some pressure and I for one welcome that thought.Initially I am on a small dose alongside Depakote, I was spaced out on day one and had tummy issues on day three but besides that, it’s going ok. I had my bloods done yesterday and my dose is being doubled tomorrow night, so we’ll see how it carries on, I have a positive attitude towards it and high hopes.
unhealthy, I saw a photo of me in a swimsuit and was utterly disgusted with myself. I made a vow there and there to change for the better. I have reduced my eating to below my daily required amount, AT & I have taken up night-time walking… it’s great!
Every night after dinner, we get wrapped up like snug bugs and walk through the darkness at a brisk pace. I have to admit, I MAKE myself do this even when I’ve had a tough day or I feel awful, I find it helps to lift me.
Our other regime is a little less conventional and quite fun, it’s Nintendo’s Wii Fit. We can see the weight going down, but also enjoy a bit of super fast step class or rhythm boxing…. it’s so much more entertaining if you do it in your underwear…. just make sure the curtains are shut first!
In the two weeks since the switch over, I’ve lost about 6 pounds which I’m proud of. I’ve a load more to lose, but I want to work towards living holistically and see what happens.
In the time since I last wrote, I have had a number of emails and messages from you. Firstly thanks for reading and secondly, thanks for your messages.
Let’s see if I can share a little more of myself online like I aimed to!
-D-
